Wednesday, July 30, 2008
I hope she's well... ♥
8:15 PM
Alot of things had happened recently...
Firstly, got my bonus which is prorated.
However, sufficient enough to get a 2nd hand piano.
Next, the unexpected sudden departure of my 2nd aunt.
My Mom's younger sister.
Although she had been recently diagnosed with stomach cancer.
But she had been discharged from hospital and to return for subsequent radiation therapy.
However, she had been re-admitted again for so-called "chest infection".
This time she never made it out alive.
I remembered there was a point whereby she was passing out blood.
And her haemaglobin(Hb) level was only 6(normal is like 12-14).
So, she had blood and platelet transfustion in the middle of the night.
The first time when I visited her in the hospital, she was on only on 4L oxygen.
Then, and also potassium chloride replacement.
That's all.
She was still cheery and my cousin said the DRs told her is only chest infection.
The 2nd visit was the day after the tranfusion during the night.
She was on 15L oxygen, non-rebreather mask.
That shock me abit but she was still alert and told my mom not to visit her since she's having knee pain.
And during the visit, she was having IV Omeprazole 80mg infusion.
Although, all along she's been having hematology problem,
It still didn't occur to me that it could be this bad.
And her team DR, Dr Adrian Chan updated them when I was visting.
He used to be the neurology team in my hospital.
He was saying that my aunt can go for the OGD since her Hb went up.
The next time I know, I received a call from my mom during work telling me she's gone.
I don't usually bring my phone out when I work.
And I remember talking to Bee Leng(colleague) about her during work.
Her asystole time was during the time I was chatting to Bee Leng about her.
I can't say I super extremely upset when I heard she passed away.
But seeing her lie in the coffin, really breaks my heart.
It doesn't look like her that was lying in that coffin.
My 2nd aunt is someone who is cheerful, at least in front of me.
Then, today, I rushed down to Mandai for her cremation.
I was earlier since my piano class is at woodlands, and the cab uncle is super nice to drive me fast there.
I was chatting to my uncle-in-law while waiting for the rest.
I never spoke so much to him in my entire life.
In chinese custom, the elders cannot "send" off the younger.
By right he cannot come.
But he told me, he insisted to come, if not, he will regret.
From there, I'm glad my aunt had a husband that loved her so much.
And when the coffin came, the band was playing some emotional music like Auld Lang Syne.
My cousin, uncle-in-law and I was the only one there.
I started crying silently when I saw her coffin and heard the music.
It broke my heart once more.
When everyone came and the ritual is over, the body is ready for cremation.
That's the worst part of all.
We were at the viewing hall, watching her coffin move into the furnace.
When it was reaching there, everyone is shouting for her soul to run before she got burn.
We were all crying badly, I was crying so badly that I cannot shout for her.
For once, I knew how much relation mean to me.
Unknowingly, we had all loved each other.
Seriously, I miss her.
But I think she's happy over there because she did not suffer the pain of cancer.
She's being well-loved by all of us.
Rest in peace, Ji Yi....
PS:/ I'm still crying as I type this entry.