Thursday, January 25, 2007
exhaust~ ♥
2:09 PM
There's so many things I want to do yet I'm not doing them.
They are nothing important. Really.
But it still means alot to me.
I want to see them badly.
Because of sis's birthday I'm letting it go unwillingly.
HaHa~
God gave me another chance.
However, my thinking too much mind acted up and I'm giving up this chance again.
I can only say I deserve it if I were to regret.
Lolx.
I'm meeting my dear Val tomorrow.
I miss all my friends.
I feel very lonely recently.
Is it because of the overwhelming ICAs in school?
I don't know.
There's alot of stuff running through my mind all the time.
Sis say she need to counsel me for her ICA research.
She asked me to think of the things I would say if I were to see a counsellor.
But I know she's not one.
I can't bring myself to tell her anything.
Or maybe not only to her.
Maybe to any other person in my life.
I want to tell the world that PRCP is freaking me out when I've not even started.
I worry alot about my future.
What if there's no one to hire me?
What if I fail my exams or PRCP?
There's so many what if...
Who is there, willing to stretch out a helping hand?
Hereby I conclude, I'm just thinking too much again.
..... =.=
Miss Cynthia said she thinks I'm pretty and cute.
Somehow I'm finding all these praises said out of goodwill.
Maybe they really mean it.
But I'm starting to doubt myself again.
And this time round, there would not be a HIM to tell me what to do anymore.
I really miss him.
Often I wonder, what would happen if I ever told him I needed him?
Will he still be there for me, my teddy bear?